It’s been a tough week for me. On Monday, I started out full of energy, savouring the sunshine, however, a cloud appeared midday Tuesday. I got a mail “...we will not be proceeding further with your interviews” it said.
I had been on that process since August 2009. I had passed the aptitude test and 3 interviews, how could they suddenly end the process? It was my dream job. I had sacrificed a lot for this opportunity...
My mind was processing too many thoughts simultaneously.
Fast forward to Wednesday, mum texts to say I should forget about another job I had been hopeful for. Apparently she had called an insider (her cousin) who told her in confidence that the board members and top management had swapped names on the merit list for their ‘candidates’ *sigh*.
I still do not know how I found sleep that night. But I remember waking up in-between and remembering I had declared 2011 my year of elevation. Only then did my faith regain its strength.
I wondered how I found it easy to empathise with others and advice them to keep hope alive yet it was herculean for me. So I turned to the bible and reassured myself that all will be well, all I had to do was:
Forget the problems and hold on to the promises – Remember ye not the former things, neither consider the things of old– Isaiah 43:18.
Let go of the disappointments and await the appointment - Behold, I will do a new thing; now it shall spring forth; shall ye not know it? I will even make a way in the wilderness, and rivers in the desert – Isaiah 43:19.
I have since begun re-strategising, after all, if plan A doesn’t work, no qualms, there are still 25 letters left. I have also promised myself not to worry, because I do not want wrinkles. Moreover, nothing is too difficult for God to do (Jeremiah 32:27) and HIS plans for me are grand (Jeremiah 29:11) and because HE is ever faithful (Numbers 23:19, 23), I’ll be back to share my testimony soon.